A New Comfort For My Soul

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com

I love music!!! I love nature! I love art! The lord speaks to me through music in the most gentle yet profounding way! Whenever I’m approaching new seasons in my life I often ask him to give me new songs that speak to me, new songs that take me to a higher place of praise and worship. I notice something different though, when certain songs would get stuck in my spirit, immediately I’d understand why, sometimes, it took days to realize that particular song is speaking to my now! He would lead me to songs that allow me to zoom in on where I am with myself personally, in life, in our walk, the growth that had taken place from my past season that I’m seeing fruit in my current season. And, as I listen and listen and meditate and meditate I start basking in the light that wow! This song is really talking about me right now, this is so me! It tells me point blank that this is whats going on!

In that (those) emotional moment (s) I feel so blessed, so loved, so deeply favored that he took his time to gently but in a profound way run that by me. To let me know I’m on his mind, he sees me and this is where I am. He encourages me softly to keep going. He notices the progress I’ve made and is making. How can I not love him?? How can I not pour out my praise on him?? How can I not bawl when I fall on my knees wishing I could just explode and dissolve into him?! As I get lost in that song, stuck on replay meditating on the words, line by line, taken to a serene mental state, that’s a way to express gratitude to him! To acknowledge him! Thanking him for where he’s brought me! Where my struggles, my pain, my brokenness, the lies I fought through, the betrayal I faced, the torment I endured and the fear I overcame…this place, this season is where it brought me! A stronger woman! A woman of increased faith, increased praise! A woman of deep trust, a woman of understanding and deep compassion for others! An overcomer! A woman ready to go through some more but hoping I’m given a little break to rest- just a little break Jesus lemme catch my breath 🤣. A woman who knows her God on a higher level! Walking side by side in a more loving way… A fearless woman with her Jehovah Nissi by her side ready to conquer whatever comes her way. A woman who learned to rest in her savior’s arms telling him her troubles, relieving herself and being refilled with his peace and approval. A woman who’s In love with how naked and unashamed she feels as she shares her heart with him. A woman who is free in him, free from the expectations of others, the pressures of society. A woman who loves and respects herself, needs only his approval. A woman who understands that she will never be enough to human/ flesh but is enough on her own and in his eyes. A woman who has learned the beauty in loving others freely and genuinely. A woman who keeps making mistakes but gets up and try again. A woman wrapped up, tangled up in his love for her, who sleeps peacefully when she lays her head on her pillow imagining him sitting right by her bedside protecting her, smiling as he watches her doze off.  A woman who realizes her soul is truly at rest and has deep joy when she’s not over thinking!

What do you love? In what way does God speak or comfort you through the things you love that you cant help but love him so very much deeper?

Published by Stephanie

Hello, my name is Stephanie! It is my desire for souls to know Jesus personally; To be freed, uplifted, affirmed, and healed through our Savior. Know that you are loved so much! You have so much worth! You ’belong’ even if the world rejects and sees you as nothing! Despite what people around you, or even what your thoughts say about who you are, Jesus's truth is all that matters, and you are precious to him! Here is a bit of my story! I've been oppressed and ’held captive’ in my own mind for many years! I've struggled with depression for over 10 years. I had low self-esteem, not knowing my own worth. I chased after love, affirmation, attention, and a need to feel wanted- in relationships, to finding fulfillment in things. I didn't know how to love myself or how to receive love! I was sad most of the time to the point where I contemplated suicide twice. Deep inside, I felt a little girl full of joy, harmony, and peace who wanted freedom, and to live a fulfilled life; she was trapped inside. In late 2014 Jesus literally called out to me... and told me I would be okay. I committed my life to him in 2016. Since then, so much has happened! I've been finding shelter under his wings, and my mind is continually being renewed by his truth spoken to and about me. I have found and is still amazed by his perfect, unconditional love for me that follows me daily. I have found a secured relationship that attends to every area of my life. My journey started out rough, but it is BEAUTIFUL! It gets rocky and uncomfortable at times, but it is one filled with lessons, wonder, and crazy peace! It's apart of our walk. I am still healing (I view it as a life long process) some days I take a step forward only to take two backward but I now know to not depend on my strength even during healing as I am never alone. There are also many that I am unlearning and detoxing from my spirit that I grew up learning about. I have opened myself to allowing God to use me as I am, as an outlet to reach his precious ones. The purpose of my blog is to encourage a sincere and intentional relationship with Jesus! To help strengthen our faith and walk in him. To heal, uplift, and remind women of who God says we are. To walk in his identity- in hopes that you will know without a doubt that you matter much more than you can understand! I openly share my testimonies and personal experiences. I mean, it's a bit easier to speak and share from experiences. I firmly believe you will be blessed! Find yourself, find your path, and embark on this beautiful journey of life resting in God. Love, it's perfectly okay to be authentic- about where you are in every area of your life- in a world that forces us to mask our emotions and ’put the best forward, so people can ”see and think” we’ve got it all together.’ It's okay to NOT have it all together. Be true to yourself; this is an important step in being completely honest with our Lord.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: