Who’s Strength Are YOU Relying On?

You’re not alone, therefore you don’t have to depend on self- your own strength.

We’ve been taught so much to go out and take care of things ourselves- nothing is wrong with this, except that we aren’t learning much to surrender and depend on God, fully!

About 6 months ago I was told that I would be moving. At the time I had no Job. Before that, I had a job that I left to help my sister babysit my niece. Circumstances changed things, and I ended up not working at all. I know I didn’t want to go back to my old job; it was very demanding, draining and stressful, mentally, and physically. I had little to no time to even take a break to eat. So, I wanted something different.

Hearing the news about the move, pushed me to act a bit faster. I felt myself getting extremely anxious. ”God, where are you? I’m praying but not hearing anything.” anxiety lead me to pick up the phone, reaching out to my old boss, and asking him about a position. After getting off the phone I cried as I knew this wasn’t trust and total dependency on God. I knew that this wasn’t praying and waiting in faith on him to act. So, I repented and asked for him to not let my former boss respond with the position, if it wasn’t his will. I told Jesus that I would wait on him. I know that I wanted something different and I trusted him to send me another job. This was a bold move for me but I embraced this challenge. Everything in me wanted to not go back to that old position no matter how much money I would make. Everything in me had peace that I should continue to follow my heart with what I had desired.

About 5 months later, my Aunt who came to visit, was helping a lady out at her restaurant. One evening she came home and said the lady needed help there.
You guys, the feeling that came over me left me speechless, gazing into space. I sat for a minute in awe. I believed God would show up, but experiencing what I had hoped for, somehow always blows my mind- I love it!!!! Inside I was crying so hard in excitement. ”you answered me, you answered me…omgosh you’re here…” were thoughts and emotions that were going through my mind. I knew the second my aunt spoke to me, that that job was mine. I reached out to the lady and in 3 days she responded giving me my schedule.

I decided to stop stressing, stop being so anxious about a month before getting the job! It wasn’t easy, but if I were going to trust God, anxiety and trust couldn’t be in the same sentence or operating at the same time. One of the meanings for anxiety, according to Merriam- Webster’s Dictionary, is a strong desire sometimes mixed with doubt, fear or uneasiness. Yes, I needed a job but I wasn’t in search of it alone, I had Jesus and I depended on him fully! He presented the opportunity through my aunt and I made the call.

So there’s no way am I telling you to sit still and do nothing. The Bible says faith without works is dead. What I am saying is to not depend on SELF. ”Trust in the lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” -Prov 3:5-6. God loves when we trust things in his hands, this is a chance for him to show up in mighty ways and blow our minds and hey, a great way to spread good news and to encourage another! It also encourages prayer.
Give your plans to him, tell him what you’re working on, include him in every thing and he will give you best results. You’re not doing life alone! In fact he tells us in Matt 6 not to worry about your life! He will take care of us!
We may have to wait a while, which is the hard part- but boy, does this includes lessons and hidden treasures that adds to our growth and reminds us of his presence with us- the end result is so worth it! It will have you experiencing emotions you never thought existed (smile) and most important, it builds your trust in Jesus!

I really hope my testimony helps someone; it’s always my desire…and I always pray that whatever God does for me, that he doubles it for someone else.

I pray that if someone is waiting in search of a job or waiting on God for an answer, first that He gives you peace in this difficult time. I pray that he will remove every fear from you and your family and give you inner-strength, power, and courage to keep standing bold! I pray Psalm 91 over you! I thank him for covering you under his wings and drenching you in his blood. I thank him for removing your anxiety and giving you rest while you wait on his answer. I thank him that you will have joy while you wait, and you will have surety knowing he is working things out for you. I thank him that you will not worry about your life but be content in whatever situation you’re in. I thank him that your faith and trust will increase and you will be closer to him, in Jesus name!

Published by Stephanie

Hello, my name is Stephanie! It is my desire for souls to know Jesus personally; To be freed, uplifted, affirmed, and healed through our Savior. Know that you are loved so much! You have so much worth! You ’belong’ even if the world rejects and sees you as nothing! Despite what people around you, or even what your thoughts say about who you are, Jesus's truth is all that matters, and you are precious to him! Here is a bit of my story! I've been oppressed and ’held captive’ in my own mind for many years! I've struggled with depression for over 10 years. I had low self-esteem, not knowing my own worth. I chased after love, affirmation, attention, and a need to feel wanted- in relationships, to finding fulfillment in things. I didn't know how to love myself or how to receive love! I was sad most of the time to the point where I contemplated suicide twice. Deep inside, I felt a little girl full of joy, harmony, and peace who wanted freedom, and to live a fulfilled life; she was trapped inside. In late 2014 Jesus literally called out to me... and told me I would be okay. I committed my life to him in 2016. Since then, so much has happened! I've been finding shelter under his wings, and my mind is continually being renewed by his truth spoken to and about me. I have found and is still amazed by his perfect, unconditional love for me that follows me daily. I have found a secured relationship that attends to every area of my life. My journey started out rough, but it is BEAUTIFUL! It gets rocky and uncomfortable at times, but it is one filled with lessons, wonder, and crazy peace! It's apart of our walk. I am still healing (I view it as a life long process) some days I take a step forward only to take two backward but I now know to not depend on my strength even during healing as I am never alone. There are also many that I am unlearning and detoxing from my spirit that I grew up learning about. I have opened myself to allowing God to use me as I am, as an outlet to reach his precious ones. The purpose of my blog is to encourage a sincere and intentional relationship with Jesus! To help strengthen our faith and walk in him. To heal, uplift, and remind women of who God says we are. To walk in his identity- in hopes that you will know without a doubt that you matter much more than you can understand! I openly share my testimonies and personal experiences. I mean, it's a bit easier to speak and share from experiences. I firmly believe you will be blessed! Find yourself, find your path, and embark on this beautiful journey of life resting in God. Love, it's perfectly okay to be authentic- about where you are in every area of your life- in a world that forces us to mask our emotions and ’put the best forward, so people can ”see and think” we’ve got it all together.’ It's okay to NOT have it all together. Be true to yourself; this is an important step in being completely honest with our Lord.

4 thoughts on “Who’s Strength Are YOU Relying On?

    1. Thank you so much for standing in agreement with me, my prayer over my blog is for people to be blessed. I believe in my heart that God is in everyone single post giving his people a line, a sentence or a paragraph as needed for any situation.

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